surviving.

life is allright. nothing amazing. nothing horrible.

school is pretty much easy compared to the hell of last quarter. classes are allright, 2 csd classes that i should put more time into, but i'm not. and 2 psych classes that are allright.

i'm really sick of the weather up here lately. this winter- no snow, too much wind, lots of rain. i can't handle the wind-rain combination. it just seems worse this year than ever before.

i haven't cried in a while. which is really good. i'm taking a lot better care of myself, keeping busy with school, working out, and both jobs. which are still lame. there are still lonely nights and sad moments, but i guess i'm used to them now, so they aren't as bad. or maybe they truly aren't as bad anymore.

i have 2 really important grad school applications to mail this week. but before i can mail them, i must complete them. yeah... about that. then its just a waiting game. hopefully before spring break i will have answers. that whole "what am i doing after graduation" question seems to keep getting brought up, and my answer is still "i dont know what i'll do if i dont get into grad school", though i do know the answer, i just don't want to deal with it. i really hope that this summer i can get out of here, and go SOMEWHERE- anywhere. i'd love to go to Israel, or Europe, or even just somewhere warm for a week of vacation. we will see if that happens.

truthfully, i'm scared. but the little things get me through the days and make me happy.