spokane

i'm alone, and i have a sinking feeling this is how i'll be spending the next year of my life, alone and forgotten. while the rest of you have lives and are moving on, i'll be stuck here, treading water. i'll be going nowhere and doing nothing. i love my family. and i miss them. but coming back here, ugh, it just spells failure to me. i should save money and move here, i know it wont be as bad as i think, and i know that bellingham isn't going to be great like i want it to be. but fuck, i dont know where i'm supposed to be or what i'm supposed to be doing.

this isn't home anymore.

but really, nowhere is.